February is always a really crazy month. I have not been able to keep track or keep up with what has been going on. There is a lot of focus on next year at the moment which is intimidating and I keep finding myself helping other people or just not getting anything done on studio days. It always takes me a really long time to get a new enough idea after one project is done. It feels like I've been making a lot of work, but I really haven't. We have missed a ton of school and a ton of class and school itself is really stressful at the moment which means I am exhausted and thus creatively drained. I also don't have a working camera that I can bring to class every day, so I can't take process shots. (Sorry Coach, I think about it and realize I can't every class, I promise). During our studio days I have started and been unhappy with three different projects until I started an ambitious new one two weeks ago and now I have to finish it for next Tuesday I think.... I am recreating nude figure I drew with thread. The main commentary on my last critique was that my more anatomical pieces were too disconnected and I need to bring back the expressiveness that I usually have. I can't decide if I like how it looks yet, but I have to stick with it and finish it so I have something I can turn in. That is one of the hardest parts of this class. I abandon and redo sketchbook pages all the time. I abandon ideas and projects constantly but if I put a lot of work and time into a piece I hate, I have to finish it or else I will have nothing to turn in and I'll get a bad grade. I hate grades. They are numbers that judge someone's value and that is not okay. Sewing is really painful. Also, writing an artist statement is really hard. Feeling productive on studio days is also really hard. I have had a really rough week and this weekend I need to mindlessly work on something that I wish I were more excited about which makes me kind of sad. I hope it turns out well as a whole.
I am an art student at Maggie Walker and this is the place where I talk about what we're making and what we're learning... Through this I can pour out my heart about my artistic experience.